Change of pace.

Well, it's been a month. Sorry 'bout it.

Today was a good day. I've been serving at the Beanery since October and today was the first day I did something out of the ordinary regarding work. I was able to go to work with Jordan (my new roomie, in Silverlake) and act as a Production Assistant on a Spec shoot for Nurse Jackie. Jordan works for Rick Floyd (one of the biggest Art Directors in the business) as his lead man. Rick's assistant is Jax, a super kick-ass kind of girl from New York City. She is trying to train me in to help assist in all the business aspects of the various shoots and what-nots coming up. If this works out I may be looking at a brighter, more financially sound, more fun future. Keep your fingers crossed!

Things are looking up!

xo

25 going on 25?

I hear people saying "I'm 25 going on 30." or "I'm 40 going on 50." or what have you, but rarely do I hear "I'm 25 going on 25."

What I mean by that statement is that I feel stagnant in my life right now. Maybe that's not entirely a bad thing, but it's making me restless. With my 25th birthday coming up this July I'm feeling some pressure to figure out what my next step is going to be. I've told myself that I am going to stick it out through the summer here in LA living with Jessie, and hopefully finding a job in Hollywood. If it gets to around the end of August and I'm still feeling restless, and not making any headway in my finance department, then I am going to reassess things. Maybe another move? NYC? Chicago? Run away to London with Meredith? Sure, why not?

Apparently you're supposed to have some stuff figured out by the time you turn 25. Or, at least that's what your parents, peers and society have to say. Why 25? What is the big deal that has made everyone's subconscious hyper-aware that when you creep towards 25 you're supposed to have some things settled, and your wreckless late teens and early twenties behavior should be well put away and done with. Is this the age where we are considered adults, finally? Is this the cut off for having unnecessary debt, help from parents in emergency situations, and the need to have two non-fulfilling jobs while still not making ends meet at the end of the month? Should we be better than we were at 24?

I'm not saying that I don't agree with what I said before. I think there's something to the age of 25 that does make you less of a child in their early twenties and you've now moved onto your mid-late twenties which inherently makes you an adult. (Though, I don't believe you're really an adult until you've had children.)

Going back to what I said in the beginning about 25 going on 25. This next year I feel is going to be one of major change. I said that about the year 2010 and so far I see some things happening. But, I feel a BIG change in the near future. I feel like my 25th year of life will be one that I will remember forever. And right now, I can't see past 25. Yes I know there will be many more years after that. But. That's where my focus is right now. That's where things are going to happen. And that's, hopefully, where I'll get some clarity on what the hell I'm supposed to be doing in this life.

Get ready 25. Here I come.

I wish I was a writer.

Sometimes I sit in front of this blog for hours just wondering what I can or should say. How do some people have that knack for writing and others don't? I want to write important things, or things that people actually want to read that they find interesting. I want to ask questions that make people think. I want to write about relatable issues. I want to write.

My views from my downtown loft.

Photography.

I miss taking photos. I miss the part of me that used to travel and see the beauty and mystery in the simplicity of life. What I wouldn't give to be able to buy a really great camera and take off for 6 months and travel and take photos of the world.

Change. Again.

Today is my last day at Raksa. It seems like the hours I'm getting at Barney's and they money I am making are going to be enough (for the time being) for me to make it each month. I will miss my Raksa family, but looking ahead to a fun, less stressful summer.

I'm selling my car. The Little Furv Monster is getting a new owner, hopefully this week. I shipped my moms car out here last week and will take over ownership of her until I find another car hopefully this fall. She'll make due til then.

I'm moving, again! As of May 1st I'll be residing in the beautiful home of Jessie Webster. Her roomie Poppy is moving out after living there for quite some time and I am the lucky person who gets to move in! Cannot wait to live with a girl again, have a full kitchen and actual space to live and create in.

Hopefully this June I will be able to go home, it's been way too long. My nephews are growing so much and I'm missing it! It will be so nice to be there, and for longer than a few days I hope.

That's all for now, I'll be posting again soon. Love.

Marathon.

26.2 miles. Done!

It went really well considering it was my first one. I came in right at 5 hours which is what I was hoping to do. I'm definitely still feeling the soreness today, 3 days later, but it will soon pass and I will be hitting the pavement again. (I'm actually feeling the itch to run again already...)

I got a package on Monday from one of the most amazing people in the world, Pete from Mpls, congratulating me on the accomplishment. Here is what I got:

Couldn't have been anymore beautiful or sweet.

I had the best support group the day of, and the greatest bunch of friends meet up with me after to celebrate. It was a really, really wonderful day. Thanks to everyone, here and away, who supported me through all of the training, and to those who sent me positive thoughts and vibes the day of. You certainly helped!! Much love,

xo

Marathon excitement.

Two and a half weeks. How did it come up so quickly?! Regardless, I couldn't be more excited. I completed an 18 mile run yesterday and totally rocked it. I can't even believe still that I did that. Who runs 18 miles and is able to be alive, well and walking comfortably the next day?!

Keep me in your thoughts. Actually, keep my knees in your thoughts. xo

Friends.

Friends are remarkable things, huh? I am truly blessed to have such wonderful people in my life. Whether they are here or far away, I couldn't have better friends.

The fact that two of them in the last week have offered me loans because of my serious financial struggle absolutely amazes me. Not just because it is so unbelievably generous of them, but because it's crazy to think that some people my age are in places to offer loans. Are you kidding? I can barely afford my next meal let alone think of lending money to someone. I would love to be able to have the funds to lend out if a friend needed it. That would be the best feeling in the world. Unlike being the friend who needs the loan. Blah.

I am very ready for February to be over and for March to begin. March will be better all around. I can feel it. T-minus 27 days til LA Marathon.

Thank you to all of my wonderful, loving, amazing friends and family. I couldn't be here doing what I do without you.

xoxo